From My Always Beautiful Daughter

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I shall probably be in major bother when Jane finds that I have posted what she has written here.
But her thoughts and words are too powerful for my eyes only, so here it is :

How Can I Be Beautiful ?

How can I be beautiful with this "Thing" inside me ?!
How can I be beautiful with this frumpy, short, boy hair ?
How can I be beautiful with these needle marks, holes and bruises ?
How can I be beautiful with these tired tear stained cheeks ?
How can I be beautiful when crying and feeling so weak?
How can I be beautiful when I'm so vulnerable and needy ?
How can I be beautiful with these poisons and toxins inside me ??!!!!!!

I am beautiful! ................
I am beautiful to my young boy who says I'm gonna be a princess in my new hair
I am beautiful to my husband who every day treats me so tenderly like a precious gem that mustn't break
I am beautiful to my parents who would literally die if they could to stop me being in any pain 
I am beautiful to my siblings who tell me they love me, cry with me, want to help me be strong
I am beautiful to my friends and colleagues who have showered me in flowers and gifts and say it's so quiet without me
Beauty ... they say it's in the eye of the beholder ....well ..... I think I have enough beauty for ME!


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